Once upon a time, there was a master of Zen called Daruma Taishi who had meditated for 9 years on the rock. It is told that, although he could attain enlightenment he lost his both arms and legs as he spent too long sitting on it.
So now, Samurai has spent almost a year on the bed and still got a complete body functioning enough except the bone marrow in restructuring and the brain size of ostrich own, yet it is very far from enlightenment…lol.
Generally, women sound to feel more pain than men.
So, Samurai wasn’t born to feel a lot of headache neither fever like a woman, but unfortunately, on the process of Chemotherapy and Transplantation these symptoms are very normal. Ironically, Buddha doesn’t protect us when we need him…When these come up to his body to suffer him, at present, he doesn’t know how to alleviate them without using analgesics. Well, no merit to be born as man for a while…
And also, these lazy symptoms make us demoralized for do anything. No encourage for reading neither watching TV. These moments are so difficult to keep his spirit high, positive and dream about happy future.
But he has to get rid of these difficult situations with Samurai Spirit in order to realize his next aim.
The result of the first bone marrow exam after the transplantation is that still can see by a microscope a few percent of immature cells but it is difficult to say that these are malignant at the present phase. Because of the damaged bone marrow where produce fresh blood caused by Chemo it can not produce it as well as healthy one. So, hereafter we have to follow whether this production of healthy cells will be performing well. And DNA’s problem must be resolved, too, and its result will come up only 2 weeks after.
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This is it!!
Look at this illustration!
It’s Samurai drawn by one of nurse leaving today the hospital…
If you are Brazilian, can’t stop to laugh about it.
Brazilian joke;
Rabbit ejaculate so quick…
Chicken signify bitch...
Additionally, the team Samurai played for the first time in
When Samurai’s wife looks at it, she will be died to laugh although no doubt this nurse doesn’t intent to, at all. lol
But thanks anyway for her job here and hope her success in new place.
After all, Samurai is still waiting for the blond nurse team that his English teacher from
More than 10 days after the transplantation, Samurai still has been suffering from fever and got his body so lazy, especially legs and foot. Although these symptoms sounds no period we have to believe that one day it will end off even getting nervous and less patience in this moment.
It is not easy to tolerate these symptoms but there’re a lot of things that he wants to do after couple of months when he gets better. In other words, there’re a lot of people to encounter and to say: I’m back! Once he almost touched the heaven, he will be filled of happiness when he can shake hardly their hands again. And this is the hope that has kept up his spirit.
Despite the fucking disease Samurai feels so happy to have them in his heart.
February 9th, without any problem, the Hematopoietic Stem Cell Transplantation has successfully done. However, now we have to keep in observation on its establishment on the Samurai’s body. So, from now on, the real key game gets started.
At first, he’s really appreciated for a lot of kind messages, letters and phone callings from all his friends in the world.
Since from the transplantation done yesterday till this morning, fortunately, he’s not been feeling any kind of symptom of GVHD (graft versus host disease) is a common complications of allergenic bone marrow transplantation in which functional immune cells in the transplanted marrow recognize the recipient as "foreign" and mount an immunologic attack. Therefore, happily, he could have a peaceful morning today.
Thanks to the almost 1 month of the treatment at his home between the last December to this January also has contributed physical and mentally in order to prepare a better condition toward to this 2nd transplantation than the 1st one, so, obviously we can strongly expect that this conditioning will help a better recovery.
However, this time all our expectation is focused on the vitality power at cell level of donor’s as well as his own, therefore, now it’s time to Samurai shows his profound potential, too.
But now, it is little bit difficult to understand what exactly the vitality and how to reinforce it. Somehow, for the moment, Samurai believes that recognizing again his mission in this world and trying to accomplish it is the best way to carry out it.
Though, through this fight against the disease he’s been learning a lot, the most precept is “people only can live with supports of a lot of others” indeed. He has no doubt that he could get where he is today by the grace of a huge number of support of his family, friends, medical teams, colleague and managers of the office and a lot of others.
Even any kind of opponents show up on his way, before he accomplishes what his mission requires, he can’t give up his life.
Live vigorously keeping his will higher and being obliged in order to follow his own life.
While he is on the treatment he tries to keep editing here as his condition allows.
Thank all of you very much for your kind support.
Watching the National Team’s game against
Well, the second shot of Chemo has done today morning and feeling better than yesterday, less silly and more hunger. Yes!! Now I’m having a can of coffee that I didn’t want a bit of it at the first transplant and also feeling much physically stronger than that period. So, let’s say that Samurai has been entirely better prepared to the second transplant so as to keep his spirit higher!!
Samurai must get better till the world cup in June and insistently wishes that he will be able to toast high a glass of beer watching games as much as 4 years ago at the No Names Bar in
It is so hard to describe Samurai’s mind in foreign language….But he made up his mind to keep trying…
Sometimes, Samurai can touch the same contents which he describes his mind (kokoro) on his blog in Japanese. http://ameblo.jp/quemobile/ (please, feel free and free to access to it). Please enjoy the both.
Well, everyone got on your mind (kokoro) which means “spirit, soul, mind” and for the Samurai, it is not easy to control it even being its owner, maybe it could be hard for everyone. So, feel like that you want to try to handle it but you don’t know how to grasp it.
On Samurai’s mind there are always two types of different spirit. One is Positive thought and other one is Negative thought. These are twin and called as “insects on mind”by the owner. Kokoro no mushi, in Japanese.
Well then, they fight each other inside of him and when something suffering or perturbing factors are surged the Negative wins a game and when something glad or eats what he really likes the Positive gets the gold medal. Therefore, they act so freely on his mind and play like on the seesaw… it means no control and his mind is like a lawless zone??!! lol
However, comparing to the beginning, lately, Samurai has been getting better control these 2 insects, trying to think about what would like to acquire and to be in the future. Samurai’s brother suggested him to have one more dog (already have 2). It will be definitely a Bulldog!! lol
Well, the first Chemo has done this morning and feeling like hang over silly but helpfully feeling no nausea, yet. That’s a good sign and why the side-effect could make me more intellectual??!!
